Author Archives: Ruthie

Why I’m Done Being Afraid.

How am I doing? Well, my mom is on her 12th day of fever and my little baby nephew is in the hospital fighting for his life and meanwhile there are 3 year-olds being left behind at airports and bodies dangling from helicopters and honestly, I am mad. I am mad that this is the… read more

Let’s Remember This.

Yesterday I had a friend over. It was the first time we had seen each other in months and it felt so good to see her actual face and hug her neck. We’ve both been quarantined in our houses, trying to do the right thing for the world and trying to use this time to… read more

We’re All in This Together.

The frozen icy mix hits my face as I walk across the parking lot/hall of shame to my local TJ’s in my leopard print pj’s to see if they have any almond butter. I need it for my granola that I’m halfway through making at home The tiny ice crystals bite extra hard against my… read more

‘Mom Guilt’ and Why I Cried Over a Salad at the Dinner Table.

Tonight should have have been a joyous gathering at the dinner table, we had just come in from playing in the snow and doing creative things all afternoon, but instead I found myself pinching back tears as I ate my bowl of fruit while everyone else ate fake chicken nuggets out of the freezer and the… read more

Ninety Three Years.

Today, the sun rose on the family farm just like it had for 93 years but this time, it was different. The wire that held the same fence posts in place, the briskness in the air felt exactly the same on my face as it always did, but this time it burned memories into my… read more

Progress. Not Perfection.

I wasn’t going to post these pictures. Truth is, I was going to post a more “perfect” one to show my recent weight loss, but hey #progressnotperfection, Amiriiiight??? So I’m posting these because the truth is, the teething baby needed to be held and this is the most he had smiled all morning and THIS… read more

The Break(ing).

It’s late, but I am just now able to catch my breath from everything that’s been happening these past few days. My kid broke her arm and just like that all of my plans for this week came screeching to a halt and instead I’ve just been rubbing her down with essential oils, putting TONS… read more

Living the Dream.

A friend asked me the other day “what I’m dreaming about these days?” and honestly I hadn’t thought much about it recently. It’s a legit question that needs to be asked, but then I realized that somewhere in the laundry and the constant “referree-ing” of who gets the last piece of cookie, I had not… read more

Motherhood. (The Things No One Ever Told me.)

No one ever told me how absolutely heartbreaking motherhood would be. No one ever told me how scary or challenging or exhausting or hard this path is. I didn’t know how much my body would ache or how many meals I would skip or how many nights I would go without sleep.   There have… read more