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Motherhood. (The Things No One Ever Told me.)

No one ever told me how absolutely heartbreaking motherhood would be. No one ever told me how scary or challenging or exhausting or hard this path is. I didn’t know how much my body would ache or how many meals I would skip or how many nights I would go without sleep.   There have… read more

The Birth of Me.

What a difference a year makes! I’m feeling all the feels tonight as I tuck my 12 month old baby into bed and remember this night a year ago. I was so spent, I had reached the end of myself and my pregnancy and I had gone for one last waddle in the cool evening… read more

Celebrating ’40’ + Saving my Sanity in San Diego.

Hey guys! I’m sorry it’s been so long and that you’ve had to go on without me here on the interwebs. I’m sure it’s been hard to live without my silly rants and cheesy humor. I apologize. But I’m going to keep it real. I’ve had a baby, my THIRD baby human and that human… read more

On Love and Romance (After Baby).

Y’all. This is what love looks like after 3 kids and 14 years of marriage. Yesterday I moaned about how I just needed a little romance in my life. It had been 3 weeks/YEARS of late nights, busy schedules and ‘sleep regression’ for this Mama, and by then I felt a strong need for some… read more

Baby Skin.

Sometimes I stare at his paper-thin skin and I wonder how in the world can I possibly protect him? How can I possibly preserve his innocence in this cruel and rigid world? It’s such a stark contrast to the toughness and furrowed brows of our society and yet when I think about it, we are… read more

Fourth of July. Or Was it Valentine’s??

To be honest, yesterday was a mess. In fact, by Instagram standards it was an epic fail. I woke up with visions of red, white and blue LAYERED popsicles that the kids would help me make for the fourth, (how fun, riiight??) but we didn’t have the right mold (I had thrown it in the… read more

Letting Go. (The other side)

The Promised Land always lies on the other side of a wilderness. ~Havelock Ellis I’ll be honest, I’ve been in a bit of a wilderness lately. This pregnancy held so much promise for me at the beginning and yet halfway through I found myself completely exhausted, feeling defeated and miserable. My body was tense with… read more

Arrows and Teepees Baby Shower.

Hey guys! As you may have suspected, I’ve been a little busy lately.  My days are completely used up sorting baby clothes, figuring out where the bassinet is going to fit, going to final meetings with my midwife/doula and breathing through these last few weeks before baby comes. Oh, and let’s not forget: going to… read more

I Knew It Was You

You chose me when I had nothing left And my arms had come up empty from recent tragedies and futile attempts at making sense of our future and what had been taken My soul weighted from the loss of hope and the dream of having another chance, A child to love And yet I knew… read more