Lessons

Ninety Three Years.

Today, the sun rose on the family farm just like it had for 93 years but this time, it was different. The wire that held the same fence posts in place, the briskness in the air felt exactly the same on my face as it always did, but this time it burned memories into my… read more

2018, the Year of Brutal Honesty and Radical Healing.

2018 had some high highs and low lows, but mostly it’s the year that I found some peace of mind and health again. I have spent so many years treating and coping with the depression that has plagued me for more than a decade, and this is the year that I finally walked into a… read more

I Believe Her. (But Not Enough to Destroy HIM)

#Ibelieveher. But I also believe that people can change and yes even a young brash boy who assaulted a girl CAN CHANGE. I understand that people sometimes do things as young adolescent, TEENAGE boys (and girls) that in reality is not who they actually ARE. Sometimes they do stupid, foolish, even hurtful things in high… read more

On Love and Romance (After Baby).

Y’all. This is what love looks like after 3 kids and 14 years of marriage. Yesterday I moaned about how I just needed a little romance in my life. It had been 3 weeks/YEARS of late nights, busy schedules and ‘sleep regression’ for this Mama, and by then I felt a strong need for some… read more

Depression: It’s Not What You Think.

Let’s talk about depression. It’s such a deadly thing and yet no one wants to talk about it, much less, seems to understand it. And yet with all the recent deaths of celebrities, we can see just how deadly and important it really is. As someone who has struggled nearly all my life with this,… read more

Here’s Your Story. Step inside.

For so long I walked OUTSIDE my story, not willing to face the abuse, the secrets, and the deep sadness I held since I was a child. It was miserable. I was miserable. I would constantly present only the best parts of myself to people I met so that I could be loved. I would… read more

Behind the Shadows.

No matter what the eclipses of our lives and no matter where we stand in the darkness, we can be sure that the light will come, the sun will shine again. While the world is darkened with crime and the news is depressing with stories of hate, there is yet a light that shines in… read more

Soft, Not Strong.

The older I get, the more I think it’s not about how strong we are but about how soft we become. The more I meet people the more I want to know what formed them what hurt them and what still hurts them, and how their soul is moved and affected and changed by the… read more

(Tomorrow) We Will Still Be US.

Today is a good day to remember who I am and that nothing will ever change that. That no matter what, no president, no system, and no government can ever take my LOVE or my peace away. Nothing outside of myself has that much power. It’s good to remember that I am still the ultimate… read more

Getting Angry, Broken Fingers, and Starting Over.

It was a morning from you-know-where. Hubs was away on business, and I was on my fifth full day of single-parenting and dirty laundry up to my ears, when things got really well… REAL. (Aka: “crappy”,”shitty”, “poo-ey”, “I-wanna-tear-all-my-hair-out-crazy,” whatever you call it at your house) ​She got mad, slammed the (car) door on his fingers.… read more