Dear Two Thousand Thirteen, It’s been real. It’s beeen good and bad and hard and wonderful. And I would like to take this time to say…”thank you.” (I guess??) FIRST… You started out with a bang, when my huzbun and I discovered the “happy little surprise” of another baby being added to our family! Yeah. A bit reckless, perhaps, but you proved yourself pretty epic right from… read more
This week I am celebrating thirty-five years of life. THIRTY-FIVE years, my people. This is craziness! I remember looking at thirty-five year olds, thinking they were…well, mature. Like, REALLY mature. Ha! Not this girl. I am still a twenty-two-year-old in so many ways. I still think of myself as the young, flirtatious, fun twenty year old that… read more
It’s been a bit chaotic around here. Baby boy’s been squealing from bellyaches, Beanstalk’s been asking “why” and I’ve been jostling and juggling and answering questions. I’ve been chopping veggies, packing lunches, and buttoning up princess dresses with one hand, bouncing baby in the other….Holding and swaddling, explaining and swaying. I’ve been returning phone calls, taking orders, and… read more
I feel the light drawing me forward, pushing me gently toward the epitome of bliss that awaits my being when I meet eternity in that thing I have created, that soul I have nurtured. Veins pulse with excitement, the heart races and my body crashes against the waves of doubt, of breathless fear and awestruck fury. Like the… read more
Well. We’ve reached the end of this series. (YAY! We did it!) We’ve made it through the good and the bad of my close-up encounter with cancer, and the ugly of losing my father. We’ve lived through the not-so-pretty parts of my tango with weight gain and migraines and miscarriage. We’ve re-visited the pain of infidelity and… read more
Gratitude, like forgiveness, has been such a game-changer for me that I hardly know where to start in describing how it has re-designed my life. Like forgiveness, it has been a major cornerstone to my healing, and a huge component of my happiness. And like forgiveness, I am still in process with it. I find myself in a daily dance with its transforming powers. One… read more
After writing last week’s post about forgiveness, I realized that there was so much left unsaid about this subject. There is so much more to the story, at least for me, that I decided to dedicate another post (in this series) to it. In all reality, I could probably spend four more weeks on it and… read more
How did you ever forgive your husband for cheating on you? I get asked this question alot. Especially from my female friends. And honestly I don’t really know. First, I’m not sure that I have forgiven. That proclaims a certain amount of past tense accomplishment, i.e. I have lived in Ohio, or I have been to Thailand, and… read more
One of the first things I noticed about the hospital at Oasis, is that they left the patients’ room doors open. Unless the doctors were discussing confidential information with the patient, there was plenty of freedom to come and go, and to visit each other as we pleased. In fact, that kind of interaction seemed to be promoted. I should not have been surprised. It… read more
We were all shocked and devasted by my father’s sudden passing. Even my mom who had spent the last two days with him, did not suspect that the end was near. We believed with all our hearts that he would be healed, up to the very end. When I waved goodbye to him at the airport, I had… read more